What the hell, blog.

Warm welcome to whom I know will become my devout and beloved fanbase. This was meant to be a simple intro to my website but turned out to be so long it is basically like a whole blog post so here are the big ideas:

• My 2025 goal was to center creativity in my life

• That includes getting better at the skills involved in creative outlets I enjoy like writing

• AKA I am writing more

• AKA I made a website

• AKA I'm gonna post whatever I want on here but starting with writing musings on/analyses of live music events I attend & music I am currently enjoying

• Disclaimer that my only qualifications to analyze music is an intense history with collegiate a cappella and a brain that likes to think :D I am no expert, just a girl having fun.

  
  

  Love & cherish u for having a look !

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As I said at the top: Welcome!

At the beginning of this year (2025), I was enjoying a typical reflecting and intention setting evening over a not-so-typical NYE illness (I got pneumonia</3). As I sat in my gratitude for the ways in which the last 12 months had pushed me and pondered my hopes for the next, I decided I wanted to re-center creativity in my life.

I grew up with a central value of creativity in a household that encouraged exploration and imagination (forever thanking my very cool parents and a pre-smartphone childhood for that one). From sitting in on church band jam sessions with my bass-playing dad to weekly lessons from a "how-to-draw" textbook with my mom, hobbies in the arts were a part of everyday life. As a result of this consistency, an itch began to grow in my brain that could only be scratched by flexing the creative muscle, like a runner developing restless leg.

A more ironic side effect of growing up with the arts as a default pastime was an inability to identify myself a "creative person." In fact, I remember consciously rejecting the term. The thing is- even though I was always involved in art-y/music-y/dance-y/theater-y activities, I was never exceptionally good at any of them. Or at least not enough for my perfectionist brain to accept praise. What I was exceptionally good at was school—an environment with measurable metrics that made it easy to know exactly where my performance ranked. This meant I was a "book smart," person. "Creative," was a descriptor reserved for not book smart kids who struggled in core classes and drew hyper realistic eyes in any notebook available. Aka not me.

It wasn't until my most beloved pastime, music, suddenly dropped out of my life that I felt the aforementioned itch really start to do its thing. Perhaps I will dive into my complicated relationship with making music in a separate post- hopefully after I finally take my long-planned steps to heal that part of my life by (duh) just making music again. For now all you need to know is that I finally (recently) realized I am a creative person because not being creative made me go crazy!

All this leads me to where I am today- 25 and in bed, writing an overly detailed intro to a music blog at 1:00am on a Saturday night in Berlin.

More specifically, I was inspired to make this site after I volunteered at a music festival (Sommarljoooom <333) and had some really fun brain fueling conversations with my new friends and fellow volunteers about the performing acts. It got me thinking about starting a series where I write about my experiences attending live music events, which is where I'm starting on pushing prose though I expect other topics will slip into the mix as well.

If anything I write happens to spark some thoughts or emotions for you, I'd love to hear from you and chat. Brain food is better shared in company in my opinion nom nom.

If you have any critiques on my writing or how to improve what I have going on here, you can respectfully keep that to yourself or make ur own website<3 I am, in the end, just having fun!

Thanks for visiting! I love you!